Thursday, September 30, 2010

serious as a heart attack

So, our boy is very, very sick. The sickest (as i was informed by the Head of the Neuro ICU) of the sick. I would have been just fine without that particular information. Ken had a heart attack. Yup. They aren't sure how serious yet. Won't know for 24 hours. They can't do anything about it because all the meds they'd give him for it would be harmful to his head. I feel like somebody just set me down in the middle of a foreign country with no map, no knowledge of the language, culture or history. I am lost. And I want to go home. I desperately, desperately want to go home. I want to be at my kitchen table eating Ken's french toast, talking with the boys. I want to listen to Ken explaining some random fact to Wyatt about the way the world works. That is what I want.


  1. Well, fuck. Ah, J, I'd give anything for the four of you to be back there listening to the peanut butter princess story too. But you're not alone, I promise, we are all here pulling for you and praying and thinking and sending everything we've got.

  2. oops, that was Elisabeth. Remember Wyatt and his "fuck no, Mama!" (Oops, now I said fuck THREE times on Ken's blog. Cmon Ken, you need to read this priceless commenting!)

  3. I am having Tess call you. I love you and will be up day or night so you can just do breathing on phone. I love you I love You I love You. You are stronger than this moment

  4. I'd love to be able to take some of this agony away for you. I'm imagining you guys all at home being goofy together. LOVE you all.

  5. Oh Jamie, I have been looking everywhere for a map to send you. But, as I sit here alone knowing there is nothing else I can do, I am going to grasp desperately to the belief that Ken has that map but just doesn't realize you are looking for it yet. Hang on to someone. Hang on to hope. Hang on. Ken, you too... Give Jamie the map. Please.
    I love you both... all.

  6. Oh man Jamie. I know Jill and I want to be here for you. Either us would be happy to come down and be with you. Just let us know. I'm gonna wake Jill and give her the news. I wish I could change was has happened for ken. We will be here for you and Ken and help you however we are able. Know that you don't have to travel this new path alone. There are many good friends to hold both of your hands and help you figure out that map.

  7. Jamie, Joel has been keeping me updated on this journey and I want you to know that there is an entire community of caring, loving individuals who are fervently sending healing thoughts and will continue to do so. Much love to you. Much love to your boys. Much love to Ken.

  8. "I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind.
    Some come from ahead and some come from behind.
    But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see.
    Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!"
    -Dr. Seus

    Keep swinging that bat Ken.

    Hang in there Jamie. You and Ken are in many thoughts and prayers tonight.