Tuesday, December 21, 2010

tender

Here I am sitting, listening, looking at my sons and husband. Such an every day thing, one would think. But it hasn't happened in a long time. At least not without knowing it would have to end. Now we have him with us again and all I can feel is tender. I look at him and am just so full of grace, and peace, and right-ness. He makes comments every once in a while about how he looks. His scar and his (slightly) droopy eye. I can honestly say that he has never looked more wonderful to me. The scar on his head is the symbol of the grace I am feeling. It is a reminder of how close we came to not having him here, explaining a lunar eclipse to Wyatt and talking to Gus about when he can watch TV. I love that fucking scar. I love his droopy eye (slightly droopy). I don't quite love his left side not working, but I love the progress he is making. The fight he is showing, the patience and the kindness he is giving his left side. It reminds me of how he is with the kids.

He's been walking with his cane, and making Spaghettios, and i-touching. I made meatloaf, one of his favorites. There's been a lot of laughing so far. Good first day home.

13 comments :

  1. God is great! We are given everything because of His Grace. I'm so happy for you, Ken and your family. May God bless you, Ken and your family all the days of your life. Merry Christmas!

    ---
    Julius P. (an old friend from West Essex who's been praying for Ken's recovery with his family since we first found out about the aneurysm. For the kingdom, the power, and the glory are His, now and forever. Amen!)

    ReplyDelete
  2. Love you guys...have a womderful Holiday together! Keep writing-you are helping people you have never even met...thanks for that.

    ReplyDelete
  3. This is just the blog we've all been waiting for...welcome home Ken! What a wonderful Christmakkuh (sp?) present!

    ReplyDelete
  4. sorry, forgot to leave a name...that last post was me...Margaret M.

    ReplyDelete
  5. No words, just a big, big smile.
    -nancy b

    ReplyDelete
  6. It is a very, very good day. I'm so grateful it has finally come.
    xo Amy

    ReplyDelete
  7. Now there is the warmth that I remember. There is that warm, fuzzy-sweater feeling that came out to light the room up on cold winter nights. Merry Christmas to you and yours, hon. You deserve this.

    ReplyDelete
  8. You guys always make me grin with happiness that I am fortunate enough to be able to call you friends. Welcome home Ken.
    -Shane

    ReplyDelete
  9. Ken came home. Jamie feels at peace. Doug got a job. Sh*t. Now I really do have to go to church. I was praying for all three. And so were a bunch of people who don't know any of you all. Wowzers.

    ReplyDelete
  10. I could not be happier for the Shaprio family. It's a Christmas miracle! Well, not really a miracle - you've all worked darn hard for this "miracle" and I can't think of anyone who deserves it more. So many people are grinning from ear to ear for you all today! Have a wonderful holiday!

    ReplyDelete
  11. lovely. just wonderfully lovely. - Danielle

    ReplyDelete
  12. You have been so open though all of this. Reading your posts helps me feel like it is a second Chistmas. The best part of it all is the laughing and being together. So happy you are getting that for your holidays.

    Thanks for all you have been willing to share.

    Love and All the best,
    Tim

    ReplyDelete
  13. How absolutely beautiful, Jamie... sending love for all of you... Welcome home, Ken...family. xo, Barbara

    ReplyDelete